With just under a week gone since the chaos that is finals passed, I’m surprised it took me so long to get back here and write my life out. I missed it 🙂 It’s been an interesting semester and an incredible year that’s passed me by. It’s truly challenged all that I am, and to be honest, I’m still not exactly sure who that is.
In fact, I’m not quite sure at all.
It flew by so fast. I’m sure there are many of you reading this that will agree with me. I remember praying about the year ahead waaay back in January, which almost feels like last week. In my experience, there’s always one word I’d receive that would describe my year around that time, and for this year gone, it was ‘laughter’. When I think back, there perhaps is no other word that I can muster from within the reaches of my knowledge of vocabulary that can truly describe it other than that.
It was a joyful, ironic, life questioning, satirical criticism of everything that was me. Sometimes, I laughed because I was the happiest man in the world; others because I was so confused that it seemed like the only thing I can do. It helped the pain… it helped me to not have to think about my circumstances, and gave me the a strength in order to shoulder my burdens and get things done. Of course, like a single word used to describe an entire year, laughter simply wasn’t enough.
I was crushed as each weight, one after the next, pummelled me into the dirt. Had it not been for a measure of grace being extended each and every single day, I don’t know how I could have made it this far. Sometimes I’d laugh because I knew to expect these things to happen, to the point where times when I should feel pain, I’d laugh it off instead of trying to sort my feelings out. I’d eventually train wreck myself back into shape, but that’s no way to live, is it?
I experienced quite a few things that were new, and full of interesting twists and turns. I had my first relationship, as well as my first breakup. I became the president of the Christian club I referred to often in my previous posts, among some other things. I wouldn’t trade what happened for the world, and I’m thankful for the lessons that they all taught me along the way. I thought I had a lot of things figured out, but then God just likes to turn everything upside down sometimes to really show you that there is more than this.
I guess I’m still a bit upside down, but I’ll be back on my feet again soon enough… looking at how much my life has changed in just these 12 months, it’s a bit scary to think of what’s to come, you know? I wonder what word will describe 2015? One thing I know for sure, is that I’m not ready for it in the slightest, no matter how much I think I am.
But I will be 🙂
I hope that your year was full of experiences that you can look back at and smile, but more importantly that you can learn from them as you look forward to the future. Those things have come and gone, and will never change. The only thing we can change, and prepare for is the future, so lets go on ahead and do that! Nevertheless, I’d just take the time to wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year 😀 Jesus Christ came to this earth, for one reason and one reason only: us. That’s all He cared about, and if it weren’t for us, He wouldn’t have come. I hope you’ll take the time, as I will, to reflect on that, as well as to thank Him for that which He has done in the past year and will do in your present and future.
Enjoy your day everyone! Love ya’ll!