I was not prepared for this

Standing here assaulted by these feelings
Wondering if to press charges or not
I’m indictable, and my battery’s low.
I’m running out of juice, and I’m thirsty,
Hands holding this cup to my lips,
Trembling as I question if I should drink it
Or just pour it out as an offering
I’m full of holes and deplorable
And yet Christ calls me holy;
It’ll probably just fall out anyway.
I see it clear as day,
The reality that lies before me
Uncertain but yet so poignantly loud it’s pungent.
I turn my nose up and look away
Because it’s beautifully atrocious
I keep it in my periphery but look to God alone…
I was not prepared for this.

A heritage from the Lord.

I’ve been quite delinquent in delaying the writing of this particular post, but it’s been burning in my bones to share, and so alas, fingers glide across mechanical keyboards, and by the grace of God, some encouragement happens. As mentioned in a previous post, I made a very big decision in deciding to surrender my life to Christ, but what exactly did I decide?

Well, simply put, I decided to leave my job and the safety and security and pursue my call to missions in a very active way. I handed in my  resignation and began steps toward getting involved both missionary activities both in the short run and the long run to best use my life for His glory. It’s a grand journey, and a glorious adventure waiting to unfold.

As for the short run, my journey has led me to have various opportunities to interact with and minister to children. Throughout the experience I’ve been bombarded with the weight of how much this upcoming generation needs the love of Christ, and how vulnerable and impressionable their young minds are.

There were also some lessons along the way that I picked up. 2 Corinthians 6:2. which was a memory verse in a Vacation Bible School (VBS) programme, taught me that I don’t have to wait until some grand missons trip to get started on God’s plan for me, or the people around me. Each and every day is an opportunity to share God’s love to someone, whether that be the Gospel, and encouragement, a story, a song… As God breathes life into us every day by His mercy, we are without excuse if we keep that to ourselves.

2 Corinthians 6:2 (NIV)
“For he says, “In the time of my favor I heard you, and in the day of salvation I helped you.” I tell you, now is the time of God’s favor, now is the day of salvation.”

Another VBS programme led us to the book of Philippians. There, I was encouraged to not be anxious in this season, but to continue to be in communion with God. I was reminded to not be of a reluctant or complacent attitude in my service, but to take pride in the intrinsic value of serving my brother’s and sisters in Christ, as well as in spreading His Gospel to the world. These lessons proved to be very critical in this time of waiting on the Lord for direction. Your faith is challenged, but as you hold firm, God’s mercy and grace comes through in real ways and you can’t help but worship and love Him more.

Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

Lastly, my experience in assisting some children with education has shown me that we all have something we can share. Ephesians 2:10 says that we are God’s handiwork; created in Him to do the things that He prepared for us in advance. We were never created to be mindless drones slaving from paycheck to paycheck; but to demonstrate God’s love and the beauty of His finished work on the cross, that all may see and know Him.

It is my hope that as God allows, that I would be able to share aspects of my journey with you, and that you would be able to be encouraged by my story. For the praying among us, there are some points that you can lift up in your quiet time, such as:

  • Direction for where God to send me as I continue my application process
  • Support to be sent to wherever He chooses me
  • Prayer for the children that were involved in the VBS programmes, that they would make a serious decision to follow Christ, and for those who have that they would continue to stand firm and represent Him in their schools and communities

Feel free to comment your prayer requests as well. Let’s pray in unity and continue to see God’s plan unfold in this world. I hope you enjoy the rest of your day!



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