Random thoughts when I should be sleeping. . . 

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As you can deduce from the title, I should be sleeping right now. I’m lying here on my bed in a trance of thoughts of a million things other than what I want to focus on,  which is the back of my eyelids. Currently the gears in my head are churning on starting my own YouTube channel and building my first (and likely ambitious )  mobile app. For Android of course. Because ios is for wimps (just kidding!)

I’ve had a lot of free time on my hands, and so this is probably a welcome change as compared to all the loafing around I tend to do. Perhaps, some hard earned cash could come out of this, and one could only be hopeful. As the year is coming to a close, one cannot help but look back at what has gone by and contemplate the past, and future. In my esteem, I’d say that I haven’t really accomplished that much within this year; and that’s a bit of a disappointment, especially coming out of the exciting beginning that I had in January.

I’ve had my fair share of failure this year. Some of it was humbling, others heart wrenching. Still my bruised heart beats and pumps forth an optimism that next year will be a great one. I have a feeling that 2017 is going to be very important, and so I’m really looking forward to see how the cookie crumbles. In the midst of all my ambitions and plans, I’m very curious about where God’s plans for me are.

Proverbs 16:9
“In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.”

In the midst of the myriad of ideas that flow through my brain, I really want to focus this coming year on what God’s plan is. This year felt like a bunch of sitting around and waiting, but I know that things were being set into motion and soon enough, I’ll see some action. Whether or not I’d enjoy said action, well I guess I’ll just have to wait and see.

 

In God We Trust

Come Awake

As many of you know, the Come Awake Team has been on an extended break due to different situations that have come up over the past few months. Despite this, we felt it was necessary to take the time to respond to yesterday’s election results. We know that the decisions made in this country are important and last night’s decision is no exception. But we don’t want to focus on the election or the candidates or the results themselves. What’s important is OUR response, as followers of Christ, to the latest developments in our nation.

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Accountability is Key

Hey guys check out this post I made for another blog of mine 🙂 follow it for some good content as well 😉

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After coming a long way and petering out of the honeymoon phase, it’s not uncommon for a relationship to have its own share of problems. It’s not that the couple no longer loves each other, but rather the euphoria of finding that special someone in your life has started to fade away. With this veil slowly vanishing, the issues you may have overlooked or have been unaware of are now starting to peep up their little ugly gnome heads in your beautiful garden. It’s a safe thing to say that this occurrence is virtually inevitable, so if you haven’t gotten there yet, be prepared.

A wonderful tool to help get out of this little predicament is something that a lot of Christian groups recommend: accountability. Now I know what you may be thinking. It sounds corny and lame but at the end of the day, it’s recommended for a reason…

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Real Talk: The rigors of change

 

So I’m sitting by my desk after a session of cleaning some of my drawers (mind you I’m not done yet, but decided to take a break while listening to a video on procrastination…. yes, I know, I’m procrastinating) and I’ve been thinking a lot about change. A popular saying is that the only constant in life is change, and I’m left here, bewildered at how many articles of the past still remain within my six drawers that I clearly don’t use or need. I’m not just yet ready for a minimalist kind of life, but I’m pretty open at this point to throwing some of these things out. They’ve outstayed their welcome, and only serve to invite dust and cobwebs and those little insect creatures that everybody knows about but don’t know what they are called when you leave old papers lying around for too long.

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In my moment of respite, I’m left to wonder the circumstances of my own life in the
quiet and stillness of a Sunday evening about those things that perhaps have overstayed their welcome. Having very much transitioned into the rigors of adulthood, there is this heavy weight of realizing that just about all the circumstances surrounding you are in your control, or are as a result of the actions that you choose. There’s no buffer from your parents anymore; it’s your mess, and your job to clean it, much like this desk I’m procrastinating on.

So what keeps us back?

Personally, I feel as if there’s still a bit of an illusion that these things are not that big of a deal. Things like saving up for the future, and paying close attention to your health, oftentimes introduce complications in your life that you are not always ready for. You find it difficult to incorporate them into your daily routines, which are more often than not seemingly packed to capacity as it is. Then there’s the gravity of knowing that you need to choose the direction that you want your life to go, and that there’s no one to do it for you. Up until recently there was always the easy choice: go to school, study for the test, pass the test, graduate… but now, the world is your oyster and you have no idea where to start.

I really admire those who had the foresight and resilience to charter their course from the get go, but I’m sure I’m not the only person who kind of just stumbled into the path that they’re currently treading on, and not a hundred percent sure that they should continue to stumble into their future.For those people, it feels like there is this little creature looming over their head that whispers for them to get their lives in order, and the more they ignore it, the more it fills their inner self with dread and fear and discontent with their current situation, but for the most part, they continue to ignore it.

I believe it is vital to be intentional about everything that we do. Our jobs, our recreation and our relationships, so as to plot our courses toward what we wish to achieve, and better yet, for what God wants us to achieve. The latter is often the hard part, because our dreams of grandeur don’t always line up with His plans of us being His humble servant. But let us run with perseverance the race marked out before us, trusting through faith that God has a plan for us, and that in the end, we will have joy everlasting.

 

 

 

Go.

 

You ever feel like you’re not good enough?
I have. It’s been rough trying to tough it out there where no one cares
And all your luck brings you are bad circumstances.|
No matter how much times you chance it
Failure keeps coming back like some bad romance.
It’s not that fun now is it?
I don’t know about you, but I tend to feel like Jonah.
His persona is tied to one who tried to
Do it on his own, but God had different plans.
It took a great fish to help him understand his death wish of trying to appose his maker
And in the end he was angry because God was a savior instead of a bringer of fire and brimstone.
I perspire when I think about purpose.
It always has this eerie ring to it like if the Holy Spirit gonna come in like a wrecking ball and go all hadoken!
On your plans and all you can do is tremble as he says hey.  Ninevah. Now.
Yet somehow I always come around and i don’t know how but it just leaves you in awe of who God is.
As you reminisce of his goodness and the way leaves you breathless as you’re drowning with feet off the ground
Heart pounding eyes on his hand reaching out to o ye of little faith.
And you put a little faith and start to make baby steps on oceans deep
And creep to your daddy with tears in your eyes cause the storms came in and left you shaken and all you can do is crawl to Him.
I don’t know about you but I’m all to familiar with that weakness.  But that’s when He is strong.
There’s something about  being as weak as chaff that causes that fire to burn.
Despite your reluctance the Holy Spirit comes up with just the right heat to set you ablaze.
He instills a crazed desire in your heart to be a part of his great mission, and big fish or no, there’s a fire shut up in your bones
And to  that Ninevah you go, knowing Who is in control.
You know that as you march your nemesis brings the genesis of his plots to lead you into captivity
But no weapon formed against thee will prosper.
Little did he know that your exodus draws nigh, and while he might be vex with us,
Who vex loss because the boss has already spoken when he said it’s done…
It’s finished.
And your spirit jumps for joy as you employ yourself to be used by him once again.
Despite your anxiety Christ brought the remedy of love power and a sound mind
As he was so inclined to see us at his side that he died at the cross for us.
So go.
You might be a failure like me,
But God brings the victory and his comforter is right there to assure your safety.
So go.
You might be afraid of how you’d be seen but he sees you
and smiles as you choose to not give in.
So go,
Let him guide you
And don’t try to act like you’re in control. Just go.
Be still and know that He is God,
And he’s greater than any force of nature that would raise their hand against you.
Go.

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Not Well Enough

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You’re just about there.
Hands outstretched toward that line
That speaks lines of success and worth,
Yet abrasive against your fingertips
Cause as you grasp at it, it slips
And leaves you face down on the pavement uttering this statement with your lips….
I failed.
Failure has a strange ability to conjure
Fears and inadequacies where you falter
And whispers doubts into conjecture that grips your heart and squeezes the joy out.
Blood gushes and then circulates.
Your body in efforts to compensate
Drains its energy into it as it courses through… leaving you depressed and desolate.
You did do well though… just not well enough.
And it wells in your eyes as it gets tough
To cry rivers and streams to the Father
But
For some reason it just gathers.
It musters within the heave in your chest
And weighs you down as you try your best
To breathe.
To find some reprieve in the ones to whom you cleave
But warm hearts and cold shoulders don’t always cause lungs to expand.
It’s just a second hand smokescreen that became your nicotine and gave you lung cancer.
The answer is  simple. His yoke is easy. His burden is light.
He takes delight in easing your pain.
He delights in making you whole again.

 

The 1 Corinthians 13 Kind Of Love

Couldn’t have put it better myself 🙂

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1 Corinthians 13 4 – 7 (NIV)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

il_340x270.394122359_39v2Sometimes I wonder how God does it. Over and over we turn our backs on Him, we fail Him and we fall short. But despite all that God’s love towards us never changes. His love is truly unconditional. When I think about how much God really loves me (us) I become lost for words. 

Recently in my relationship with my significant other I found myself not showing what love should be as stated in the scripture. I was acting very impatiently…

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Desesperación

I recently had the privilege of conversing with a new friend from Cuba. A musician, he was part of a movement in his home country that became one of the first groups to perform within a public christian concert ever. Conversing with him, you could hear his passion for the Gospel. That day, a word he repeated that stuck with me was desperation. He came from a communist country where the expression of your faith was highly determined by the government. If you say the wrong things in a public audience, you can easily be jailed.

He came from a place where persecution was real; where in the midst of the persecution, a thirst and desire for Christ was evident. Thankfully for us where I come from, our multicultural society gladly accepts our freedom to worship, without much opposition, if at all. After hearing his story, along with many others, it left a question lingering in the corners of my mind.

How desperate am I for Jesus?

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Desperation typically indicates extreme circumstances that strongly urge one to act. I read a book recently that talked about living in a war time culture. In those times, the pleasures of life are cast aside in favor of survival. If the neighbors need bread, you get them bread. If someone is injured, you help them to the best of your ability. As Christians, we can easily get caught up in the niceties of life, that we forget the purpose we have been given: to spread the gospel of Christ. We live because of the gospel; we live for the gospel.

My encouragement is not to abandon things because they are nice, but to remember to live and breathe and do to the glory of God. My desire is to reach the point in life where I am so passionately desperate for Jesus that I can’t live a day without Him; a moment even. I want to reach a place where the pleasures of life are fickle in  comparison to my pursuit of holiness.  I wish that I would hunger and thirst after Him like my life depended on it, because when you think about it, it really does.

My heart goes out to those affected by the recent Orlando shooting, which was one of the worst in America’s history. It really goes to show the uncertainty of life, that we can be here one day, and gone the next. To live is Christ, and to die is gain, but while we live, we NEED to allow God to use us in whatever ways He can to reach the lost. We NEED to truly believe that in Christ we can do all things, and let Him have His way in our lives not just as individuals, but as the sole unitary body of Christ, for the furtherance of His Kingdom. We cannot afford to be idle in these days.

My prayer is that you too will embark on this journey with me to become desperate for Him. I pray that we will do whatever it takes to see His glory: that we will not let sin, shame, condemnation , fear, fellow Christians, our family, our spouses or anyone else and anything else hold us back from the course we have ahead of us.

Keep fighting guys, you are not in this alone! #Sameteam

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